lol.copy and pasted.
"just *******. Move on and live ur own life"
well,if thats the case,fuck u both too.cunts.


today was kinda..demoralising for me.in the heart,yes.in the heart.
just lost the motivation to gym today,even my trainer could see it,probably was because we were focusing on back muscles today but that isnt an excuse.i need to wake my self up.1more month and im planning to train for six pack in a week's time and a large bigger chest at the end of my stay.even ate properly today and had my energy drink too.very ashamed of myself.

saw this indian chick in the gym though,huge tits.skinny body,nipple tent showing.pretty amazin stuff but didnt really affect me.and i kept seeing this dude,who kept fuckin staring at me.literally staring,i would glance at him and he would just glare at me,i look directly for 5 seconds and he continues doing it,maybe he wanted to fight iunno lol.


had mahjong at my house after that.the usual stuff,so many 5 tai 4 tai chances .but me and ozy still won 8bucks cause of our 5 tai chou pinghu win.which was sexy.

dinner at market later and ended up havin a heart to heart chat with ozy at my swimmin pool till 11.45.it was good,found much more relaxed after that.sometimes i kinda understand why people need psychologists.WE SAW A SHOOTING STAR.IT WAS AWESOME.MADE A WISH TOO.

emo rant:

anyway its high time i start worryin about america.man...one of the biggest problems i would probably be facing is fitting IN.i mean im 18,i cant drive.14 yr olds drive and have their own cars over there.its embarrassing and although its just one issue,i had plenty more and despite them being negligible,they eventually add up to be somethin to worry about.

to be frank,i dont want to be shunned.not like a chandru or chengyang or wenqin in our class cohorts.fuck that.but how the hell am i supposed to click when the lifestyle is totally different there.they go to malls on weekends.play rugby baseball or basketball,wtf u kinda get the point doncha.sometimes the friendships im having now is so bittersweet.cause wer all so close now,but of all times i have to leave.i worry alot that when i do come back we eventually wont click anymore.

yeah lots of stuff racing in my head atm,i hope theres someway for me to let it out.

ps:pleasepleasepleaseplease let me click in the us.


I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.
Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and f**k with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.
Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

Forget about our mothers and our friends
We're fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms
I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world
I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home
Yeah, I'll miss the boredem and the freedom and the time spent alone.

There's really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
We'll find some more models, everyting must run it's course.

We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
We were fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah